Changes

Well, it's been a few days since I've written. It's been so busy! I am working...and absolutely loving it! My job is never the same and it's always busy! That's a really great thing! I enjoy it! Mark and I have gotten to spend a lot of time together this week. He came here on Sunday night, then back on Monday night, then back last night. Last night we went to Celebrate Recovery...it was so great! The message was on Sanity and accountability! After, we went to dinner. He decided it was just time to let Rene in on the status of us. He called her and just told her we are together and that's the way it is. That she doesn't have to like it and that he is NOT asking her for her approval. She threw her typical fit, insisted that he is making a huge mistake and on and on....when he was done we both looked at each other and started smiling! We both felt like we had this huge weight lifted off of us! I have to tell you, this has been a long road, and in some ways the longest part of it has been in the past several days. When Mark came up on Sunday night, we went to Chili's to have some dinner. There he looked at me and told me exactly how he felt. Told me that he loves me more than he has ever loved another person other than his kids. Told me he would never hurt me again, never walk away again. He explained more why he did what he did a few months ago. I understood it, but I was still cautious. He told me that Rene has no hold on his heart anymore, which is something he was honest about when we were together before. He was very open about the fact that he still loved her. Now, that is gone. He told me I have ALL of him for the first time. I sat there wanting to believe it so much. And a big part of me did, but there was still that part of me that was guarding myself. As we sat at Chili's, he said "we need to make a trip to Seattle very soon" I asked him why and he said because he owes my mom an apology and a big hug. So, we called my mom...we both talked to her and he made a commitment to her that he will take care of me and love me for the rest of our lives. Then, on the way home, he pulled the truck over and yelled at the top of his lungs how much he loves me! It was so hilarious! But so amazing too! So this is our life! We are happy, in love and doing things the right way! It's going to be a bumpy road I am sure of that, but we are in it together and we have the Lord with us too!