This picture is one of Mark's favorite of us. We went in September to Arizona, just the two of us and spent the weekend camping. Now, I've camped before, but this was by far the best camping trip I've ever been on! We were very ill prepared, it was absolutely freezing *in the 30's* and when we got there we realized we had only one sleeping bag and a small one at that! We had NO fire wood either! So, my little adventurous man went to work! He gathered up all kinds of limb and excess wood and built on this fire for over 2 hours until it was at least 6 feet tall! We stayed up until 4 in the morning laughing, roasting marshmellows, talking and taking silly pictures! This picture was taken by setting the camera's timer and setting it on the truck!
So, I'm on my 6th cup of coffee today. I'm going to need all of the energy I can get, I have a LONG day and night ahead of me. It's my job today to keep Mark awake and focused while he's driving ;) And I love it! We've talked for a few hours so far and I sent him the pictures that I have posted in this blog. He needed to smile and I knew that these pictures would get the job done :) It's funny because I miss him so badly and there are moments where I feel like this is going to take forever. But, the last thing he needs right now is to feel that from me. So I have spent the duration of our conversation encouraging him, when he says to me that he just feels like this is never going to end, or that he is so sad, or that this is such a daunting feeling, I remind him that I love him, that he is going to be with his babies every single day, and then I remind him that not only does he have me to lean on, but God is right there with him and that He has a specific plan for his/our lives. We've spent most of the morning talking about the great times we had, but the coolest thing about our relationship is that we are able to tell each other what bothered us too.
I am NOT a fool, I've been thru this before and I know that this road will not be easy, probably not for a long time! But there is one thing Mark and I have, we have faith. We have a relationship with the Lord and with that, we can make it thru the storm! I just keep reminding him of that. I am finding that I have much more strength than I realized. I lost focus for a while, but when Mark and I are together in life, even when it's just been as friends, I feel like I can take on the world and come out on the other side unharmed.
My darling friend April laughs and says we make her want to puke...but you know what? I'm glad, I think this is exactly how people are supposed to love each other....sappy love. It's the greatest feeling in the world! When I was married, I can honestly say that I didn't feel this kind of love. I think a lot of it was just a security for me, I was so young. And I really thought that this kind of love didn't exist...at least not outside of the movies, but I can stand here and say with certainty that it DOES exist!
We were talking this morning about all of the things we have had to go thru, both with each other and alone, to get where we are right now. Mark said he knows that our relationship will be so strong because of all of this, and I have absolutely NO doubt about that! It's like that song that's on my page, "From Where You Are" by Lifehouse, We really do miss ALL the little things, never thought they would mean everything to me. It's so true!
So I have this to say...first of all, thank you to all of you who have supported and loved me individually, and both of us together, thru all of this. And second, if you don't have this kind of love, you can! It takes work, it isn't easy, but it is without a doubt worth every single effort, tear, smile, laugh and frustration! Go for it and never give up!
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