The Year of Dragonflies!

To our Belt Buckley family, we love you more than we could ever put into words. You are simply amazing people. I know I can speak for Mark right now and say we both thank God for bringing you to us. Just because we're gone from the "block" does not in any way mean we are gone from each others lives. We will have time together again, we will be back in NV and we'll have a houseboat reunion :) And hey, we've got San Diego in September right? We love you Belt Buckley! Thank you for being you and loving us unconditionally thru all of the highs and lows! You're simply the best! Oh and we will always have Halloween! This is for you guys!








In my old blog I posted regarding my love of dragonflies. I had looked up the meaning of them and found this: Dragonflies symbolize the ability of changing and being ok with it. Also renewal, positive force and the power of life in general. I thought this was pretty awesome.

So, there have been a lot of changes I've had to deal with in the past couple of years. Some good, some painful, but all in all the changes had to happen. I guess I've learned how to deal with changing and adapting. Not to say that it's not painful at times, because it is...a lot of the time.

Mark spent the day yesterday packing everything into his 15 ft. trailer and the truck. He was ready for this change ahead of him. We were so blessed with amazing neighbors, it was in no way your typical neighborhood. It was a family in every sense of the word. Well, the Belt Buckley crew headed over to the house last night to say their goodbyes. Mark was a wreck. It hit him that he was leaving this family behind, yes, he is going to be with his kids, but these people have been there thru everything, babies being born, separation, divorce, new relationships, and everything else in between, good and bad. He found himself grieving for the loss. They spent time with him, loving him and encouraging him. They are amazing like that! At the end of the night, they made sure he got to bed at a decent hour, which is actually a miracle since most of the nights on Belt Buckley are very very late! But Mark is their baby and they wanted to make sure he would be safe and rested on the drive. They all know him well, they know he's stubborn and he has been known to make that long drive with absolutely no sleep. But this time was different because there is so much emotion involved.

I was so worried about him last night, I didn't get to talk to him, he was too upset. And I knew exactly how he felt because it was so hard for me to say goodbye to them when I left. But I talked to Donna last night and told her to give him a huge hug for me, and she did. I went to bed, hurting for him, missing him, but knowing he would be ok and get thru this. He called me at 8 this morning, which was 6 for him. He said "were you worried about me last night?" I cried and said of course. He told me not to worry about him, that he was ok, it was just hard. I explained that I knew exactly how hard it was. We cried together and I told him how much I believe in him, how much I respect him and how I will be there right along side of him no matter what. We talked for a while as he was just getting started on the drive. He couldn't fit everything into the truck and trailer. He had to leave most of the bedroom furniture that we had bought together. I told him that I was sad about that and he said "don't be, it's a new time and we will just get something different together" So, here goes our new journey, well, I guess there's a couple of journeys. One he's finishing and one we're beginning together. And this time, we will be doing things a little differently, and like he said today this time around we are keeping both Shayne and Rene OUT of our relationship completely. I love this man with everything in me and I am so thankful God has brought him, and kept him in my life!